Dizzy

 Along with allergies is dizziness from too much fluid in the ears. I’m dizzy especially on standing up. The world whirls, reorienting my body. And it reminds me of when I hear really bad news; the passing of my parents, of Andrew…how there is this dizziness, this spinning and like shaking out a sheet, the molecules of the familiar, the solid spin and settle into almost familiar lines. Not exactly the same.  It’s as if the shift of my inner landscape, the sudden emptiness or loss as space is echoed in the outer world.