50/50

 

Depression and anxiety are illnesses where the negative is always in the first thoughts.  I encourage people to at least have the possibility of positive. We don’t know the future. I take some comfort from that and always have. 

For myself, the positive is where I used to be. And used to want to be. So this is a change for me to say it’s 50/50.  After this year of a historic pandemic, the loss of Andrew the year before, I’m at 50/50. 

2021 will be different, right? Will be pandemically better, it seems from here. But maybe it’s hope rather than faith. I hope it will be better. I, 50 percent believe it could be.