Suffering

 I can say it now. I had a tough time in August and September. It occurred to me; I’d always have this pain. I felt like time became this intolerably heavy burden. I was cloaked in darkness, seeing only darkness, putting my head down to hear, not even see, my feet hit the ground. 

I walked in the dark for days…finally, I lifted my head and thought; I will always have this pain but not all the time... in waves, not constantly, in waves. And the dark began to lift. I felt relief from the burden; lifted my head and could be aware, could see again. 

P.s. I just looked down at my planner where I have written the words Andrew left me. "Reach for the stars! Even in the dark there's always a light" The mysterious workings of the universe! Thank you Andrew